I knew just what I was going to talk about today. I had planned it months ago. The post has been sitting in draft mode waiting for this day. I had even planned to shoot a video to go with the post. Then something happened. Life happened. I had been avoiding talking about some things in this space out of fear. I didn’t want to touch on certain things that I’ve been feeling, dealing with, going through because of fear. The thing is, I had promised myself that I wouldn’t let fear stop me for going after the things I want. But here I was letting it shut me down in other areas. It was stopping me from being as real and open as I want to be with you. Then something changed.
I am a fan of podcasts. I listen to them while getting ready in the morning, while taking a long bath or riding in the car. One of my favorites is The Lively Show with Jess Lively. I have been listening to that show since it began and always have “aha” moments while listening. This time was no different. The episode was called “Things I’m afraid to tell you”. She talked about feeling a disconnect with the show and the audience and shared some things from a vulnerable place. I immediately thought I needed to do that. There were some things I felt the need to share here.
I’ve been afraid to tell you…
I’ve been afraid to tell you that I don’t have all the answers. Some people have come to me for coaching concerning mom issues. Or email me for advice regarding real life stuff. Obviously, I do my best however, in so many ways, I’m still figuring this thing out too. Aren’t we all?
I’ve been afraid to tell you that I haven’t reached my ideal dream yet. In this role I’ve given myself of “Mama Motivator”, I feel like I might be expected to have the dream life. I just might, I guess, depending on who you ask. It’s all a matter of perspective, really.
I’m in this thing with you
I’m working toward my version of a dream life everyday. To be perfectly clear, I’m in this thing with you. That’s why I’m so passionate about it. I’m in the trenches too. My goal is to share things with you that have worked for me. I’ll share the things that have kept me motivated, helped me achieve a goal, etc. I’ve been plotting out some courses and workshops to roll out this year to keep us moving toward those dreams. Because while I don’t have all the answers, I know this: dreams come true. Whether it be turning 30 in Paris, becoming a TV producer in the entertainment capital of the world-against all the odds or becoming a published author, I’ve scraped my way there. I’m not through dreaming. Motherhood didn’t take that from me. So as I figure out new ways to do new things, you’ll hear about it. While it’s easy to get lost in being mom and wife, your dreams matter. And they are possible. 🙂
Dealing and healing
I’ve been afraid to tell you why I wasn’t as present in 2016. I was dealing with a lot y’all. Last year saw me in and out of doctor’s offices, taking my first ambulance ride to the emergency room and ended with a surgery right before Christmas. When I say 2016 took me through it, I’m not even playing. Understandably, I stepped back from this space. I stepped back from a lot of things to try to deal and heal. I’m looking forward to 2017 being one of health and growth in the areas we need it most. I’m ready to start the journey. I hope you’re ready to roll with me.
P.S. Feel free to let some fears loose in the comments. It feels good to release it, I promise. What are you most looking forward to this year?