Working is awesome. Being a mom is beyond awesome. Put the two together and it can be a sucky situation. Sometimes I feel like the term working mom is some sort of oxymoron.
Yes, it’s great to get out there and do your thing in the workplace. Interacting with other adults, meeting deadlines and bringing home a check are all good things. Feeling like a part-time mom, isn’t such a good thing. Spending so much time away from my son is hard and strangely, it’s something I’m getting used to. I never thought I would. It’s just become a way of life. He goes off to school, we go off to work and we all meet up again at home in the evenings. Those few hours in the evening are the most coveted hours of my day. It’s when I feel like I’m at my best. When I’m being mom and wife. I just wish there was some way to create that elusive balance all working moms seek. Just over two years into motherhood, I still haven’t found it.
The reality of being a working mom really hit home this week. My husband texted me to update me on the Easter egg hunt at my son’s school. He’d just found out the time. Of course, it’s at a time when I can’t make it. So today, while I’m trying to give my all at work, my mind will be at my son’s school. Last year, they put a little bunny tail and ears on him that he’d made in class. He was so cute searching for eggs around their playground. He got more eggs than any other child in his class! I missed the Easter egg hunt last year because I just couldn’t get away from work. It makes me really sad that I’ll have to miss it again this year. Last year, my husband took plenty of pictures and video.
He’ll do it again this year. I’m so thankful that he works so close to our son’s school and is able to be there. I still hate that I can’t.
Don’t get me wrong, my job has been awesome and accommodating to my new life as mom. I just really have a lot to get done and can’t get away. I mean, it’s work.
At least I’m off with my little man tomorrow. It’s his spring break. Yes, pre-school takes a one day spring break. We’ll get our mommy/son time and I’ll enjoy every second. We might even do our own Easter egg hunt.